Since this is my 'blog' and by definition blogs are supposed to be personal I'm going to talk about something personal. I've been feeling like absolute C-R-A-P recently. I must be an absolute pain in the butt hole to be around because I've just been feeling so down in the dumps and grumpy recently, so thanks to my friends for putting up with me.
My mood is completely affected by the weather. I always feel SO depressed when it's grey and wet outside and don't feel like leaving the house, I can't believe it affects me as much as it does but I've noticed it for quite a few years now. These feelings have just been heightened by the fact that I've been feeling a complete lack of purpose since finishing university and struggling to get anywhere with 'big person' job applications. I've also just got too much time to overthink things and send myself into a panicked frenzy. So basically this year it's just been worse than ever.
The only thing helping me get through this right now is exciting blogging opportunities and my lovely friends. Especially the most wonderful Emily because I can tell her anything without feeling insane or like she's going to judge me. (Check out her blog; The Cosy Traveller) Not many people actually 'get' me really and she just does. You can't put a price on that.
In any case, I'm REALLY going to try and perk up a bit a look on the bright side of life.
Anyway, I was having one of 'those' days yesterday and feeling sorry for myself after I had a rough day at work and really needed cheering up. To my utter shock and huge delight, when I came home I discovered that I'd received an email from Westfield London to tell me that I'd won the #MYWLDREAMWARDROBE competition!! I literally screamed and ran around like a loon for ages. So I've won a £700 gift card to buy my dream designer bag with at Westfield London. This is me just thinking about it now:
I can't thank Westfield enough for picking me as the winner. I'm completely shocked and am certainly one lucky ducky!
Another exciting project to focus my attention on is Money Supermarket's Blogger Secret Santa! I'll do a more detailed post on this soon enough but it's basically what it says on the tin and I'm trying to home-make the majority of my gifts and that's been keeping me busy and happy.
I've also just noticed that I hit 200 followers today, hooray! A massive thank you to anyone who reads and comments on my posts - It really makes my day when you do. Also, the new lens for my camera came the other day but unfortunately the auto-focus doesn't work so I've had to send it back. I'm not having much luck with cameras recently. Ah well, can't win 'em all!
I'll be back soon hopefully with a working camera lens and less of the crappy depressing feelings.